The Stories
Monday, May 28, 2012
Princess 11:37 PM
Am I really behaving like a princess? Everything has to be the way I imagine they should be? People has to do what I think they should do if not I get upset? Should I stop being so sensitive to people and things around me? Should I just be more relax and open minded so that I would be happier?
Am I really that hard to please? I hate myself for that actually. Tantrums thrown and sometimes I really don't meant it. But too late to admit I am a bit overboard and continue to act strong-headed. Haha.. Quite an ass I know... Lol
Back to work tomorrow. London here I come! Praying for good weather and a great new month ahead!
(:
Greece is indeed an absolute beauty. The sun (despite getting sun-burnt), the sea, the paranomic view, the friendly and helpful Greeks, the freshest seafood, cheap beer and wine. It was kind of an adventurous journey for me. Being a scaredy cat who is afraid of heights and animals. Lol. Nevertheless, I still think I wanna go back some days. Be more brave, embrace the beauty and take more photos! Ha!
Love holidays but it's about time to tidy up the feelings and mood, and get the momentum right to go back to work. Am hoping I can be more discipline and save more money. Then... probably start thinking about the future all over again. The job, finding the one to spend the next phase of life together, settling in all the commitments. I guess it's never easy. To let go and walk out of the comfort zone, to have a fairytale love story and being happily married. Never easy. Never.
I believe god will lead the way and give me what is the best for me. Looking forward actually. :)
Dear diary,
You are always my best friend whenever I am down. It's a weekend and I did not have a date even though the other half is in town. 30/31 days a month, how many days are given to me? And how many days are officially mine? Even the upcoming holidays, we have to discuss through the phone and not a meet-up to plan the itineraries and book the flights and hotels together. I seriously feel something is missing.
You dislike me for flaring up so often, and I too, dislike you for smoking your health away and you always make false resolution about quitting it. I can't even see the future together because you are not creating one. Tell me what should I do diary? I am lost and confused. At my age of 28, I should move on if things didn't work out right? I don't know. Really don't know how. May god keep lighting up my path, so that I know what to do.
I was randomly surfing on the web and I suddenly remembered, I do have a blog. (holy shit. how can i not remember?) I remembered those days when I blogged almost every day, talking about the events and stuffs that were happening in my life, the people whom came in and out, and practically, strawberrymelts was like my baby, my diary for years.
It has been the 4th month of 2012. And this is my first post of the year. Hi. Hi strawberrymelts! I am back. *lol* And...Hi everyone! How's everything going? Well, let me start off with myself first. I am coming to my 6th year of flying. Not too bad, just feeling a little stagnant at times, and if opportunity really comes along, why not, I may consider moving on. Have been to 2 holidays, thus far. Phuket and Taiwan. How lucky am I huh? Hehe. Am not exactly the sun and beaches person but when I stepped on the ground of Phuket, I really love it. The big blue sea, the islands, the carefree feeling while you are riding the scooter, (okay I was being pillared..:p), the yummy thai food (oh i love thai food!), and the warmth of the people. Went to another city of Taiwan, Tainan. Did a photoshoot there, whch made me feel like a celebrity for a day. And the best part, the hospitality of the Taiwanese.
And having coming so far with you, I thank you for being around by my side. Without you, I would have lost a bickering partner. Without you, I have no one to massage for me when I complaint about a long day at work. Without you, I have no one to cook for me when we are doing long flights together. (instant noodles using cookpot..haha) Without you, many many memories would not have taken place.
Thank YOU. :)
I promise to be back more often!
2 more days to bid goodbye to 2011. It has been a relatively good year, bringing me most of the times joy and good news. And of cos, episodes of drama do happen at times. Thank you god, friends and loved ones for standing by me for this whole year. I pray for a good new year ahead for everyone, and may good news and good events keep coming in! :)
Positivity huh? Heh...
Falling in love with this lovely princess already. :p
Always love December. It spells holidays, festive seasons, pressies, weddings, a reason to meet and catch up with friends and loved ones. :)
Though the first day of the last month of the year did not exactly started off well for me, I am still pretty hopeful for that my first flight of December (Frankfurt New York) will be a happy and rewarding one.
Best news for the day though, my dearest boy cleared all his exams! Pop champagne pleaseeeee! :p
Hope my pathetic eye will recover soon. Leaving for Hong Kong with mummy in a few hours time. Hope to come home with lots of shopping and perhaps a new perspective about life and relationship. Some things just cannot be forced right or not? (:
Good night my friends and readers.
I guess I was a little over my emotion earlier on. I should let things and nature take place by themselves. There must be a reason why things are such.
Off to nightstopping in Shanghai tomorrow then a short trip to Hong Kong with mummy! :)
I have lived for 27 years of my life, thus far. Don't you think it's kind of pathetic when there is no one to discuss about the future together with you at this point of your life?
With a stable relationship that we are hanging on together, but I just realise there is no future to talk about a couple of hours ago. When you think I don't like kids (but I keep bringing or rather hinting about having my own children), when everyone else, peers and friends around you are moving on to a new of stage of life, but marriage isn't on your list now. And we did not have any plan about our future at all. I feel tense and a need to find out what I really want in my life.
To be with someone you really love, or have someone who is willing to have a future with you. A small humble house, with kids of my own, and the man to grow old together.
Almost 28 in a few months time. It's scary. Kind of.
I hope I will find an answer soon...
如果需要利用小动作, 才能让别人注意到你. 这样会好吗?
Can't wait for Nov 5 to be over.
Give in again. I can't help it.
:D
就连不开心, 也要一个人. Swallow all the bitterness ba girl. You won't want children of the future to say you are an emo freak. Like some people claim you are. Keep to yourself & stop blogging them out.
I nod.
Smile to a good day ahead!:)
忽 然 之间 天 昏 地 暗
世 界 可 以 忽 然 什 么 都 没 有
I am disappointed, like again.
Hai...
Should I move on?
A tough decision, really.
September has been a really busy month. Doing frankfurt new york consecutively, (am currently doing the 2nd one, still a couple of days away till I reach home.) I scream tiredness, like seriously. Last trip, I met Joey in frankfurt. We had pasta, pizza, spinach and ice cream, visited museum with the boy in new york, had our favorite banana pudding, chicken over rice, lobster bisque, lobster roll, lobster ravioli, alice's tea cup for breakfast, thai food in frankfurt and a whole lot of time together, though there were moments when little squabbles and tension arise, but probably he didn't know, there was always this indescribable of joy whenever I wake up from sleep, to find him sleeping next to me.
And yet, I find us not understanding each other as time goes by. Is it the love just not enough or we are not that meant to be after all? Me, being ultra sensitive maybe is an issue. Perhaps I should not have taken everything around us so seriously after all. So what if things have change? So what if feelings have change? The journey ahead of me is still way too long to predict. Lots of challenges to cope with. And who knows one day, when I look back, I would be thankful that all these incidents happened after all, and thankful that I gave us a chance to break our friendship chain and move on into a relationship. I know I have tried.
:)
Back from Frankfurt and New York!
Will be back for more updates!
Ciao!
Why is everything revolving around the word called "wait"?
Waiting for someone proclaiming to turn into a new person.
Waiting for a future that I desire but I just have to WAIT.
I begin to wonder if this is what I want.....
Like seriously...
